October 3, 2018 Ponderings I’ve had the great realization lately that we all talk to ourselves. Unfortunately, what we usually have to say is not so nice and perhaps the worst part is that we are completely unaware. My internal dialogue tells me I’m annoying, unlovable, not worthy - actually the list of my reported transgressions goes on and on. Although we are not our thoughts, meaning we are a soul with a brain and a body, our thoughts do greatly influence our reality. F

I’ve lived with anxiety a long time. I lived with it before I had a name for it. I lived with it, not knowing it was destroying my happiness and joy. I was always on edge of what could happen, what could go wrong, how someone would hurt me, or creating fear of how I would fuck up everything. It has constantly nitpicked everything I’ve ever done. It has kept me from so much possibility because, what if I did that thing and it failed? What if I loved that person and they broke