While in my shower this morning I was thinking about how I like to wheel and deal with the Universe. I've also had friends and clients ask me about this, so I figured now would be a good time to share it with y'all collectively.
Sometimes the powers that be (God, Universe, Higher Power, Spirit, my higher self) want me to do things that I really don't want to do. Or rather, my ego doesn't want to do. If I look back on my journey the last decade, I remember a few times where this has come up and been very profound in my growth. The one I want to share with you is my Ayachascua connection. For about 8 years, she has been in my field. I even thought I would experience her back in 2018 or so but I backed out last minute because something didn't feel right about the "shamans" I was going to sit with. But that's a whole nother story we'll save for a different time.
Anyway, I kinda felt like at some point it might align but it was out of sight, out of mind. It came up again in maybe 2019 or so and again it just didn't feel like the right time. I went back to life and different healing modailites. And I guess Mother Aya was probably in the background patiently waiting. For those of y'all who haven't sat with her yet, this is how she works. She calls to you when it is time.
For me that came in the beginning of 2022. I started to hear people around me talk about her. I saw videos on Youtube, you know the usual signs we get. But ya'll, I was nervouuussss. I really don't like to puke, like I probably had a little anxiety around it. I got to this point of surrender and just said, "okay Universe if you want me to do this, here are my requirements and boundaries". They were - I wanted a ceremony in the states, preferably somewhere I could easily drive to. I wanted my first ceremony to be a private one on one experience. I wanted to be comfortable and to really trust the shaman.
Well, let me tell you, the Universe responded quick with my wheeling and dealing and a few days later I ran into a friend who told me she would be sitting soon. In that moment, I had a feeling it was a done deal but sometimes I can be a hardheaded sceptic. So I started creeping on this woman's page to see what services she offered and what her energy was like. Just based on her website, I was feeling good but I was still feeling a bit nervous and scheduled a call to chat with the Shamana. And guess what y'all?! Shocker!! The Universe had ticked off my list of requirements to a T. She was in Florida, she had this super amazing grounded energy that I intuitvely knew I could trust and she offered private ceremonies. Seems like a match made in heaven! LOL.
So, when you find yourself feeling led by the Universe to do something, it doesn't mean that you can't have your input as well. To truly co-create, with us, the Universe wants us to have some say in the things that are coming down the proverbial line for us. If you find yourself wanting to move or to do a class or work with a healer or coach, but you are hesitant or afraid - tell the Universe what you need. Be clear about your boundaries and your needs. I promise you, the Universe will repond and assist you with those things. Just be willing to have them delivered in a way you may not dream of on your own.
your Spiritual CFO